YoU ArE THe OnE WHo LEt Me KNow EvERyThInG

You are the one who let me know actually not every boy so" disgusting ". After i knew my father got other woman outside. I started become emo and more emo, i think everything in the world wont let me happy again and i think i wont smile again. I dont believe anyone and i think every boys were "dirty"and "disgusting"just like my father. I started stead with different type of boy , we never hug, kiss even hold hand, i just play thier feeling or something like play with them and at the end i will just leave them alone（break with them）and wont feel any heart breaks. i just want them to know when a girl like you a lot dun lie to them and find another girl , this kind of behavior is really humble, i want them to know how sad am i when i knew my father got another woman outside and have two children and one of  them is same birthday with me , i put my happiness on those boys but until i know you,everything had change .Actually i was just playing with you at the first when we stead but after a few weeks ,  you let my know what is love  but i just cannot trust you in 100percent, i scare one day you leave me alone  or whatever i wll cry until like hell and there wll be a forever wound on my heart so dont blame me...im really sorry but i just wanna tell you,you are the only one that love by my most sincere heart...^^